Gaslighting On the kitchen stoveLocated at Denial Central,A place with many namesAnd many faces,Although none of them kind. Standing under the flickering lightI realize I am not home.But where am I?Why am I here? Locked away at this station? If there is a lock, isn't there a key? I know I have to have a … Continue reading The Secrets of Desire & the Pain of Denial
Life is senselessly sensing. Eyes are seemingly seeing. Minds are mindlessly mentioning The bittersweet revenge of nature's curse. Go ahead and keep drinking while the world waits and listens."We don't need you here anymore."What good is a man when he's already dead? We punish the punished. We beat the beaten. "When will it be enough?""Never," … Continue reading Confusion
It's been five years since I've seen your face, held your hand, felt your gaze And I think I'm starting to finally let go. Letting go of that deep ache The confusion. The sorrow. I haven't seen as beautiful of a sunrise as I have today in a very long time, so thank you my … Continue reading Loss & Lost Love
"I no longer wish to love,But to simply be lovedAnd be full of love.Filled,Filled,Filled to the brimWith your beautyYour magnificent rays.I do not wish to loveBut to simply be lovedAnd loved in full.Why does my heart ache this way?After years of toil and turmoilMy soul aches to restAnd yet here I am,Finding myself yearning.Yearning for … Continue reading Forgotten Poetry
I created this blog for all my ramblings, which I do a lot of. My past is brutal and terrifying to most people. Well, I managed to find a partner who knew this abuse and could recognize the fear, and he has helped me face my past with eyes unclouded by my fear. He has … Continue reading Real Shit (Not for the Faint of Heart).
Not every day is a wonderful day. Not every morning is a glorious morning. Not every day ends the same way it started, and not every ending is as bad as the beginning. When you're battling health issues, or mental distress, a day often changes from bad to worse. Suddenly the pain diminishes, or sometimes … Continue reading Tired? Very.