Distractions, Distractions

My distractions become my curseAs I hurdle over life's burdens,Stumbles,And falls. I bury myself under layers ofComfort,Sin,Self pity,And remorseAll the while hating myself,Not healing myself,Not holding myselfTo a Higher Standard of Love. My distractions become my cure Once I see things for how they really are,Like admitting how my distractions Bury me deeper from my … Continue reading Distractions, Distractions

I’m Not There Anymore

The crushing weight of terror,The quickly heaving chest,The bitter tears,The endless rage,The lack of control,The lack of function,The inability to love myself fully,The confusion of my yelling,The triggered trauma,The past abuse,The sorrow inside me,The suffocating truth. I am not there anymore. As I sit at the windowWatching the rain drip down from the roof,I know … Continue reading I’m Not There Anymore

Lack of Gumption

It dawned on me while I was driving today that our society in the United States has a massive lack of gumption. Why you ask? Well, let's define the word first. According to the Cambridge Dictionary, gumption means "the¬†ability¬†to¬†decide¬†what is the¬†best¬†thing to do in a¬†particular¬†situation, and to do it with¬†energy¬†and¬†determination." Simply put, Merriam-Webster calls it … Continue reading Lack of Gumption