Confusion

Life is senselessly sensing. Eyes are seemingly seeing. Minds are mindlessly mentioning The bittersweet revenge of nature's curse. Go ahead and keep drinking while the world waits and listens. "We don't need you here anymore." What good is a man when he's already dead? We punish the punished. We beat the beaten. "When will it … Continue reading Confusion →

I Am Good Enough

I'm waiting For the fight.The screamingThe slamming The crash against the wall..But he doesn't. He doesn't yell.He doesn't scream.He doesn't shout.He only loves me.I wake up To him pissed off,And I clench in fear. Waiting..Waiting..For something worseBut he only gives me that lookLike I should have known better,And I did.I am an adult. But where's … Continue reading I Am Good Enough →

False Peace

If a senator, or any man in power says that the U.S. constitution of rights does not explicitly state the right to body autonomy, then they do not believe women hold rights over their bodies. You want to know why? Because they fuck little children. They buy into sex trafficking. They are the seediest, worst … Continue reading False Peace →

I’m Not There Anymore

The crushing weight of terror,The quickly heaving chest,The bitter tears,The endless rage,The lack of control,The lack of function,The inability to love myself fully,The confusion of my yelling,The triggered trauma,The past abuse,The sorrow inside me,The suffocating truth. I am not there anymore. As I sit at the windowWatching the rain drip down from the roof,I know … Continue reading I’m Not There Anymore →

Untitled

Often times we find ourselves in the grip of a love we can only savor, and never truly touch. It's the type of love that romance novels and movies are based off of. The type that has you on the edge of your seat in anticipation, clinging to a semi-used tissue. The reality is, this … Continue reading Untitled →

An Ode to Nudity

Why must I wear pants outside my door? Will I ever be able to be comfortable in clothes? When will we stop sexualizing the body so I can get my mail in my panties? One of these days, I say, we will stand up and agree. Hiking is better nakedUnless you see horseflies or wasps. … Continue reading An Ode to Nudity →

Loss

It's been five years since I've seen your face, held your hand, given you a hug.. And I think I'm starting to finally let go. Letting go of that deep ache The confusion. The sorrow. I haven't seen as beautiful of a sunrise as I have today in a very long time, so thank you … Continue reading Loss →

The Struggles of Empathy

Some days I want to cry for a sadness that is not mine. The feeling is in my chest, and the tears are in my eyes, but they do not flow. It's slightly maddening to have this inability to cry it out. It's like having to sneeze, but the sneeze never comes. It's dissatisfying, frustrating, … Continue reading The Struggles of Empathy →

What Happened When My Husband Caught COVID-19

My story is like many others. It doesn't end in a tragic death or hospitalization. Instead it ends in financial destitute, fear, and uncertainty. It began with common symptoms: head cold, short of breath, and fatigue. We had to make sure it wasn't COVID-19, for the safety of our coworkers. We both swore it couldn't … Continue reading What Happened When My Husband Caught COVID-19 →