I’m dipping my toes into an unknown world and I am terrified. I dreamt of a life where I was supported throughout these major steps, but to my anguish I am ignored and betrayed by my blood. My direct future is dependent on the kindness of others, and I am starving.
I don’t know what to do anymore. I don’t know where to turn. What I want to be is so far from what I actually am, and society is demanding it’s payment. Do I strip myself down and allow my heart to bleed? I am lost. I am scared. I have one person I can count on, and he’s half the reason we are in this mess. What do you do when even the devil himself won’t sell you his name?