Never have I ever had such a hard time maintaining a content life. I once was able to work jobs I didn’t enjoy without physical side effects. I was able to socialize even when I didn’t feel well. I was definitely able to complete household tasks while being stressed to the max.
Now? I can’t do any of that. My physical body responds so quickly that I hardly have enough time to understand what is going on. It’s like there is no buffer anymore. I don’t know why this is, and it could be from countless things and situations I’ve gone through. All I know is that I desperately have to do what it is I love, or else my body and mind will suffer.
So I made the decision to do what I love, which is to bake and cook. I, of course, have various food allergies and intolerances so I’ve excelled at baking gluten free. I get so excited when someone bites into my cookies and their eyes widen with joy. I love it! I love it so much that I could ramble about it all day.
So why not sell my items? Why not go out there in the heat of the day with my little carrying stand and holler at every other person I see to come buy my cookies and muffins? Why not try?! At this point in my life, everything else has failed me.
Every job, every career choice, and even finishing my degree. Everything has crumbled apart due to stress, health issues, and then mental ailments that come from the chaos of it all. I just can’t handle it anymore, and every new thing I do takes precious time and energy away from simply feeding myself wholesome food.
So today, just like any other day, I will make the choice to discover what I love and to do what I love. I will make the promise to myself to always allot the time needed to love my life. I will not hold the stress in when I become aware of it, and I will stop trying to fit myself into a box. I will do what I love, and what I love is to bake!
So take the time today to discover what it is you love. What is it that makes you tick? What brings you joy when all else fails? Now, go do it!